Hallucination

by Bea Rumi

Because of your love I have lost my sobriety

In my hallucination

I saw my beloved’s flower garden

In my vertigo, in my dizziness

In my drunken haze

Whirling and dancing like a spinning wheel

I saw myself as the source of existence

I was there in the beginning

And I was the spirit of love

Now I am sober

There is only the hangover

And the memory of love

And only the sorrow

I yearn for happiness

I ask for help

I want mercy

And my love says:

Look at me and hear me

Without shoes or shawl